buchki baby

Buchki kanna, isn't it affecting you like its affecting me?
I'm finding it so difficult to behave normally with you.
It feels so orchestrated. I like our friendship.
But... I love you much more than that.

You cannot renounce me just because I'm not promising to cook afterwards.
You are the last person I'd think of to behave like that. Where did your broad mindedness go? Where did the wonderful Guy inside you go who assured me life would be very happy without the regular fights about silly things?
It cannot be you who is doing this to me. If you want to get rid of me, just say you don't want to be together. But please don't let this be a reason for breaking this up.

First, it was an assurance of being a good wife, then living together, then sex life, then cooking??? You just seem to be coming up with more and more reasons to tell me - I need that in my life, if you can't promise that to me, you can't be a part of my life.

It's hurting every time I talk to you only to realise he is not mine anymore. I don't have a right over him. I can't be behaving like this with him now. Can I talk to him about everything still? Can I discuss all my innate fears with him still? I want a Guy in my life, I want you in my life as that not anyone else. It feels so sad and so crappy and I still laugh along and try to keep you in good spirits. I don't know how much is too much. I don't know my limits. Draw them for me, will you?


Why does it always boil down to me begging guys that I want to remain in their lives, that I want to be accepted. Is it so difficult for ppl to accommodate me in their lives?

You are a good girl but..

I returned here to see if I never mentioned anywhere here that I'll take care of our home. I went thru the earlier posts, and in the post titled "I'm not marrying a maid"I very clearly mentioned that becoz he is so sweet and respects women and agrees that a house and its work should be shared by both the man and the woman, I will do all the house work. Whatever the work be and the reason being only that he values and respects the role of a woman and is not like the regular men who try to pin up their wives to the kitchen. I was happy and proud and declared that I'd do all my home's work coz I want to and not coz I'm supposed to. Somebody tell me if that doesn't sound as an assurance that I'll take care of things, what does?

I never expected this. You are chucking me out of your life coz I can't cook? Coz I'm not assuring you I'll be a good cook and a home maker? Buchki seriously? You of all people doing this to me?
I for some reason assumed you understood me, my temperament, my attitude, my behaviour. But looks like I've remained a mystery to you too. I thought atleast with you I don't have to spell out my intentions or speak out my thoughts. It's only you who'd understand every unspoken word of mine and take good care of me. I might never tell you all that you want to hear from me but I really wish you thought a little better of me and understood a little more of me, coz I'm gonna do everything that a wife, a mother, a woman does for her family. I would. Just the thought that you didn't think likewise of me hurts.
I don't know if this is the reason you want me out of your life or you want me out of your life hence, the reason? I'm sorry if I'm hurting you with this question of mine but I'm hurting. I don't want it this way :(
There has to be some or the other thing that has to go on in our life, isn't it?

Anyway I hope you read this before you make.a place for someone else in your heart and take me back. I'm shameless no?? I'm crying so bad my stomach is aching. It was just getting well but