buchki baby

Buchki kanna, isn't it affecting you like its affecting me?
I'm finding it so difficult to behave normally with you.
It feels so orchestrated. I like our friendship.
But... I love you much more than that.

You cannot renounce me just because I'm not promising to cook afterwards.
You are the last person I'd think of to behave like that. Where did your broad mindedness go? Where did the wonderful Guy inside you go who assured me life would be very happy without the regular fights about silly things?
It cannot be you who is doing this to me. If you want to get rid of me, just say you don't want to be together. But please don't let this be a reason for breaking this up.

First, it was an assurance of being a good wife, then living together, then sex life, then cooking??? You just seem to be coming up with more and more reasons to tell me - I need that in my life, if you can't promise that to me, you can't be a part of my life.

It's hurting every time I talk to you only to realise he is not mine anymore. I don't have a right over him. I can't be behaving like this with him now. Can I talk to him about everything still? Can I discuss all my innate fears with him still? I want a Guy in my life, I want you in my life as that not anyone else. It feels so sad and so crappy and I still laugh along and try to keep you in good spirits. I don't know how much is too much. I don't know my limits. Draw them for me, will you?


Why does it always boil down to me begging guys that I want to remain in their lives, that I want to be accepted. Is it so difficult for ppl to accommodate me in their lives?