A Wow day

Wow! What a brilliant news!! What an excellent news!!!

I can use only superlatives for this moment and nothing less will justify it.

He got this two days earlier.

He showed it to me today. He told me he wanted to see my expression when I see it.

On the way from ofc to home, he told me its white in colour and will fit in my palm.
I dont know why, but I ended up asking if its a white rat he got as a pet?
And the way he burst out laughing, such a comforting laugh.. I hadn't heard him laugh like that in ages!
I was so glad he laughed!! It made me feel happy and comfortable :)

Thank you!

And we decided we'd meet tomorrow since he'd be busy helping his parents for their journey today.

again for some reason.. I felt I wanted to meet him. I was the one who told him to meet.. I just wanted to meet him.

I called him and luckily he was near by. Met at the circle, I was so glad to see him.
He was beaming since the time we saw each other, and my face which just couldnt make itself smile since morning automatically broke into a smile. I felt so good. and he was like OMG OMG OMG.
(He said I was looking very pretty) :)
After all that, I kissed him on his shoulder while sitting behind on the bike. I know he felt good and relieved but I know I was equally relieved and felt extremely good to kiss him.
I totally forgot he had to show me something. I was just happy he was with me.

and he asked me if we shud be going to the lake or near the temple to see that.
I was like ok, lets go towards the temple since the lake is a li'l far.

We went, stopped near the side stairs of the temple and he opened the dikki and pulled out an envelope.
I had no clue what to expect.

I saw the cover. The 1st thing I noticed was UPC. I misread it as UPSC and I thought he got me an application form for my exam :)
But I was in for a surprise, it read..

I was so happy, I was speechless!!
OMG he got an Interview letter from SSB. Services Selection Board.!!!

Suddenly everything from our 1st day came flashing back.
I remember telling him the day he asked me out.
"I want you to do whatever you ever wanted to do. I know you are interested in getting into Defence. Nothing should stop you from doing what you want to do. I'll be proud of you if you get into Defence.
I always felt he had an inclination to join Defence services. and I wanted to be by his side while he achieved it. I remember this talk very clearly. and after I said that he hugged me :)

I suddenly remembered that incident. I felt so good. It was indeed happening..

We decided we'll both work on it and he will make it :)
I know he will.

1. He wont have to go out of the country
2. The loan will not have to be taken and that tension will be clean bowled
3. If I also get into Civils, then tho like he says.. It will be awesome only no!
4. Both of us will be doing what we love to do, serving our country, looking after our people.

I love you baby.. 

Has to work out a li'l - lose 16 kgs, learn to do chin-ups and increase the speed and rate of other physical exercises.. he will do all that and more.. coz if he does, he has high chances of getting thru as he already has awesome height and big chest.. I offered to give him some of mine too if he wanted.. and he smiled..
he said it was sweet that I offered such an offer.. ha ha ah .. I cant stop laughing! :)

baby.. we have to make it.

Then, it will be very nice.

I love you very much kanna..

Nuvvu naa Sri Ramudivi. Naa Sree Rama rakshavi.. not the Ramayana wala.. Godavari cinema wala :)

Why You ....... i dont really know . But all i know is Its You

Sweet love ........ (gudiya paapa)

I love the way you dress up to impress me..... the hairdo you sported one night like a Jamaican ( Well!! there's not much i can do there but to get impressed..... just to reckon the fact "I AM HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE WITH YOU" ) Muaaaaah !!


i love your smile , which is something i have to see at least once a day............  (this was my condition even before i asked you out. Ever since your trip to Cochin i used to go breathless by a few pics like the ones in the link below:

http://www.facebook.com/Sangemkola?v=photos&ref=ts#!/photo.php?pid=6024061&id=766128997&ref=fbx_album
)

I felt really happy when Mom hugged you and said " Chaala Paddatigalla Pilla " good girl.....

I want a girl whom my family could accept the way she is ........ they should be able to see the love she has for me; the way we will live happily in good times and in bad.
Coz the end of the day that is all that matters......we faced a lot of hurdles  especially tantrums from GG and MG , and thanks to Appu and Annayya who were with us in thick and thin.......


 When i feel lonely i call you when i am with people i call, as soon as i get up i send you an sms saying Good Morning, and  before sleeping i give you a good night kiss......... i don't really care about the people if they are witnessing me showering love for my Buchkoo....... All that runs in my head is you are the best thing that has happened to me and i shall take really good care of you...... till my least breath.



Everything i deserve is what you have to offer me ......

నా గుడియా

It was a dull evening when I messaged her that i would pick her up and she replies me just before she is about to reach my house the following day.......

I took my dog for a walk and then comes the call ........ She said she is getting down at regular place "Pani Puri " waala thela.........i ran towards the building , the lift was stuck at the 3 floor.... i hit the stairs . I was breathing heavily but finally reached home..... took the keys and ran down and to my surprise i accidentally got the car keys ..... 

All i could picture was Micheal Schumacker cruising through the lanes and reaching for his love who is waiting desperately like they hadn't seen each other in years ......

I was Happy i was gonna drive her home..... wanted to see her as soon as possible.... and there she was in black pants and brownish black kurti with 'Anti glare ( borrowed from Pema ) specs . Boy she was looking so pretty in that getup !!! it was that moment that i realised my girl friend is very strong at heart and she is very brave ........ she may not be physically strong like men but is bold enough to get on with a One on One match, be it an argument or a fight.

We stopped at this Pani puri waala and she fed me like my hands were tied....... i felt nice being pampered, specially all of that coming from MY GIRL (too proud) .......

అనుకునన్న్త తేలిక కాదు ప్రేమ ని నిలబెట్టుకోడం ......... నాకు కావలిసినట్టుగానే అన్ని పద్దతులగల్ల అందమయిన చిన్ని బంగారం నువ్వు ............ నా గుడియా

then i left her home , and just like everytime ............ whenever we come close to her place she feels like hugging me oe pulling my cheeks and planting a kiss on my cheek. Honestly "I feel like i am on the top of the World"

I'm not marrying a maid,

I'm marrying you to share my life and not for you to do my work.!! were the exact words my love said to me when the discussion veered around doing house work, cooking, home keeping, etc. etc.

His willingness to share work aren't just hollow words or promises, he exemplifies his statement by helping me and assisting me in all my works. Be it buying groceries, house-hold items, cooking, housekeeping, everything. Earlier, being the feminist that I'm, I had decided I'd never do things that women are meant to do, forced to do or expected to do. I'll do what I like. His openness to do the 'women's' work was what made me shatter my notions about never doing such work. Now, I'm more than willing to do household work coz I like doing it and not because I'm 'supposed' to do it. We both like doing it. Be it making the bed, cooking, sweeping the house, cleaning the bathrooms, washing clothes, arranging utensils, ironing and setting the clothes in their places, shopping for and decorating our home.. When we do it together, we love it.. For us its a time to bond, to talk, to share tips from our mothers of making a house a wonderful home :)

And sometimes when I fall sick he becomes the mother of the house and takes care of all of us so well that I rest and sleep without a worry in my head and with the assurance that everything is in safe hands.

Thank you B.. heartfelt! I feel lucky!
Thank you so much love!

Rejoicing in the unspoken yet understood connection of love

Bas ek mulaqat ki guzarish hai jahanpanah
ye manzoor ho jaaye tho baat ban jaye
was how my filmy request of a meeting went to him..

The desire to meet each other is the same on both the sides but he being he, will 1st make sure I'm alright, in a good condition to walk, fit and fine and can take the stress of getting out of the coziness of home
The concern has just shot up after the recent accident. (my baby becomes my father in such situations!!)
and its difficult not to listen to him or should I say 'obey' his orders.

He is OMG sweet and caring:
Today when we went out for our evening walk to buy groceries, we had to climb a flight of stairs to reach the store and since I've been strictly advised against any kind of stairs-usage by the doctor, I was in a fix. Well, I shouldnt have even wasted my time thinking about an alternative for, in a smooth sweep, his left hand went under my left arm, he tilted me towards him, supported and suddenly lifted me on his side and then placed on top of the stairs.. It hardly took 3-4 seconds. It was the same when we had to come down. It happened like it never happened. I could a lot of ppl on the road and from the shops nearby eyeing us but I was secretly enjoying the envy in the women's eyes for I'm sure they cannot even make their husbands do it to them even in their own dreams; and the thoughts crossing the men's minds if they should be doing it to their women :) Thankfully this time he dint (pull-my-leg type) tease me saying 'that doesnt mean you are not heavy' ;)

And then when we had to collect our shoes from the shoe stand after visiting the temple before we went to the grocery store, my shoes had a strap which I'd have to bend and strap it on. Very graciously as soon as I wore my shoes, he sat down and buckled my shoe even amidst all my protests :) Aiyo!! he doesnt care what ppl would think and goes beyond everything to help me and make sure I'm comfortable. I did notice a couple of stares filled with questions when he was helping me with my shoes. In a male society, where a female is supposed to serve.. she was being served by a male was the thought I'm sure was running in their minds. They were flabbergasted!

And here I was.. without even uttering a word my husband understands every thought that runs in my mind, acknowledges every feeling I have for him and responds to every expression of my feelings for him.

Reminds me of this song:

Jazbaat Jitne Hai Dil Mein 
Mere Hi Jaise Hai Woh Bezuban
Jo Tumse Main Kehna Payi 
Kehti Hai Woh Meri Khamoshiyan
Sun Sako To Suno Woh Jo Maine Kaha Nahin 
Sach To Hai Kehne Ko Ab Kuch Raha Nahin 

Its like I dont have to make the effort of opening my mouth to tell him anything. Its like there is this secret invisible connection b/w our minds that transfers our thoughts to each other.  Even though there is always a sizeable quantity of human species around us our words left unspoken do not go unheard..  Just a look and the unspoken perspectives/ opinions are understood, a raise of the eyebrows and the question understood, a glance around the hall to locate me among the sea of ppl and the concern understood, a turn of the head after bidding goodbye and the 'miss you' understood, a wink and the naughty thoughts running in the head captured.. ha ha ha.. and I can just go on and on about my love.. my pride.. my hero!

I insisted and I'm glad..

I insisted that we be partners in writing our story here, let it not be just one-sided and how sweetly he obliged.

I'm glad I did that coz this helps. It really helps...

I'm hoping communicating this way will help us bridge those tiny gaps and unforeseen cracks, in times of distress, in times of 'no time', to announce to each other that "I love you hamesha and forever!"

Words spoken, reactions given are different from words written, time taken, to read it, understand it, think over it, respond :)

I dont know but I didnt feel bad even when he said, he hates the feeling of not being himself these days and that everything involves me. Guess I wouldnt have been able to express it better on phone but I share his feelings. I dont want me to rule his life like this.. Unlike other lovers (and thats where we are different I believe :) ) I dont want his life to revolve around me, I want his life to be a life of his own, doing things he wants to, irrespective of their effects on me. We should be bonded in this relationship but not jailed. I would love it if both of us have wings to fly and live our dreams and for them go anywhere and everywhere we want to or have to but at the end of the day, we come back to the same nest and sleep in each other's arms :)

I want us to be:

Independently dependent on each other. 
Individually intertwined.
Bonded but not bounded.
Crazy but not hasty.
Practical yet dreamy.
Maturedly childish.
Wickedly sweet...

I know these combinations sound impossible but hey, when its us, even impossible says "Dude and duddette, I'm POSSIBLE - Please let me also in into your love story :D "
And that is how we are..


He has to go and live life alone but does he forget that when he is going, he is taking me along too..
His heart is where I stay
His words are what I say
His side is by which I lay
Now All I have to pray
is that he doesnt forget to calculate my weight of 50kgs in the allowed weight of his baggage ;)


Dont worry sweetypie,
ye dooriyan aati hai so they can let us experience that virah ki agni
remember we read in 8th class in Radha Krishna ki kahani
and to experience the anguish when we are all out to reduce those dooriyan
kill our tanhaiyan
test our patience
test our emotions
(blah! yeh tests tho school ke baad bhi peecha nahi chodthe yaar!)


Its the vague, undetailed yet ascertained happy future
that motivates us to hang on,
even when we have to go away from each other
but thankfully it keeps reminding us,
"soon we are gonna be back together"
and when we dream of the above statement coming true,
it just fills us with more and more happiness that when it says 'together'
it actually, literally, figuratively, every-ly means together :)

Together...

When he looks into the mirror and speaks to his inner self to be strong, to be HIM,
hope he isnt forgetting that he is in fact speaking to me: to be strong and to be him.
To be strong is not too much of an effort, that I already am.
To be him, I aspire to be.. with a few additions and deletions of course ;)


Yes baby, I'll be with you wherever you go, whatever you do.
Its just gonna be a physical detachment for us and nothing else!


I'm not different from you baby
Do not go by those age-old sayings of 'two bodies, one soul'
Coz We are 'one body, one soul'

(mirrored and cloned and set up in two diff places)

(has to be true right? when you stretching your leg helps relieve the tightness in my leg) :)



All my expressions and emotions are for you
My kisses to touch you
My tears to seep into you
My hugs to feel you
My eyes to sight you
My fears for you to comfort
Without making an effort
Coz it comes natural
and thats the way I like it

"We decided no??"








Ah! How I love writing, specially when its for him, about him and to him :)

Snap out of it !!! Come back to reality........

Why do i feel like this ........Strange , Cold at times , like everything around me is just gone.... Loneliness is creeping in. My best friends are in town , yet i feel lazy to put on my pants and make an effort to meet them......... Why !!! I know i am addicted to her. Hate that feeling. I am not myself anymore..... What i used to be and what i am now ....... I have become vulnerable to one girl i've loved the most in my life.........I don't wanna let go............... hold on a little longer, but i have to get out of it. I have to stop day dreaming....... One day i will be gone . Gone long away . Each day would look into the mirror , and would try to convince my inner self, that i have to be strong, Be the ME i used to be.... The ME i used to be, was a stud (not that i am complaining about the present) ........ a dude cared who cared the least , at least when it came to down to girls !!).

      Two Beautiful women of my life Ma and Sis , and now she too has become a part of my life.Such an integral part that i can't stop thinking about her at all....... Day Dreams , Sleepless Nights, Thoughts about her even when i am in the middle of a meeting....When i wake up, the first thing in the morning i check if she has arrived home for Yoga or not..........  She is everywhere , inside me too......!  Strange feeling .........

I am gonna Miss her when i will be gone. I miss her even today !!!

The Only song i believe is pretty situational ....

"Hai kya yeh jo tere mere darmiyaan hai

Andekhi ansuni koi dastaan hai

Lagne lagi, ab zindagi khaali

Hai meri

Lagne lagi har saans bhi khaali

Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere

Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere

Bin tere, bin tere, bin tere

Koi khalish hai hawayon mein bin tere"

I guess i have to face the reality !!! Snap outta it.......... Get Real !!I will be gone in a few days !!! Gottu get used to being alone !!!

Guess what happened today!!!

I'm getting damn bored sitting at home.. living/sitting hell it is doing nothing, specially for an outdoorsy person like me!!

And so I started crying.. and crying.. 1st naatak wala crying and then asli wala crying...
I cried and cried till water came out of my eyes and nose and mouth.

Mummy was trying to console me big time, saying how like this if u cant stay indoors for more than a day?
Dont get used to staying outdoors so much. Don't feel like you are caged indoors.

And I kept crying and whining and kicking my hands and legs into the air.

And then mom says, "Call up 'Bu' and talk to him for sometime" (u'll feel better)

I was surprised but happy to hear that! ;) Mom, you are the bessshht!

tab Muskurana aadat ban gayi

Cant stop smiling. Just the thought that I'm so happy makes me feel even more happy.

He is taking care of me so well. If I start listing out..

haan its like that, whenever he asks me why I love him, I tell him, the list is so long that if I start, our lives will get over but not the list. So lets keep the list aside and let me just love you :)

He takes care of me so well. Damn! I miss his hugs

and on all the trips, God bless him for all he did for me.

I want to dance with him, dance like craaazzzyyyyy.

Dance a proper choroeographed song :)

I want to do things for him, I want to dress well, I want to look good,

I already feel beautiful with him.

He is such a darling baby. My love he is!

He is this and a lot more...

Finally after 9 yrs..

Everytime I see a photo, I feel so lucky. I can apply Google's caption for him, "I'm feeling lucky"

Shukhranallah!!

I'm right now listening to 'Shukhranallah' song..

All I can imagine is both of us listening to this beautiful song sitting under a star-studded sky and looking at each other lovingly and singing this very song for each other..

Actually I'd prefer the song playing in the background and me just lovingly looking at my most prized possession. I know, feels strange that I'm sayin I want to sit 'quietly' par kya karoon, when its him, I want to stay sitting in the shadows of the curtains watching him. I dont care if I'm not the performer as long as I get to watch him. I want to see him in action. I'll be his secret and best cheerleader, his supporter on every front, his humraaz, his confidante, his loyal Senapati.. sorry Senapatni :P

Just for each other...

I'm so excited and enthu about spending my whole life with you..

I want to go to sleep in your safe, secure loving arms free from all the troubles of the world.

And when you are feeling low, I want to be your partner in crime in murdering the cause of your sadness, and then you fall asleep, safe and secure in my loving hug for you. :)

I'll always be there for you for anything anytime. I'll be your strength, your pillar of support, I'll encourage you in everything you ever want to do. We'll live life together, we'll face life together, we'll love life together. You'll love every moment with me all our life, rest assured :) I'll help you discover yourself and irrespective of your successes or the stepping stones to success, I'll be ever ready with a comforting hug and a kiss that silently means, 'I'm proud of you baby!'

I know you love me as much as I do. With heart, mind, body and soul..

My dear dear husband, how can I ever thank you for loving me and treating me like a darling Princess.. I feel so special.. Thank you.. !

Its amazing..

How you can speak right to my heart

Without saying a word, you can light up the dark

The smile on your face

Lets me know that you need me

There's a truth in your eyes

Saying you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says 

You'll catch me whenever I fall...

Tum ho toh gaata hai dil..

Tum nahi tho geet kahaan..

Tum ho toh hai sab haasil..

Tum nahi tho rasta kahaan..

Jo tum ho tho yeh lagta hai ki mil gayi har khushi.. 

Jo tum na ho tho lagta hai ki har khushi mein hai kami..

Tumko hai maangti, yeh zindagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..........

P.S. I'll always..

9 is a complete hopeless romantic in every way you can think of.
It is coz of her, her writings, her proud proclaimations that I learnt how beautiful a romantic can be.
Its coz of her too that I revisited Bollywood and found it has done an excellent job in the portrayal of every human emotion possible.
P.S. I'll always.. is also how she refers to love and I love it.. The phrase itself is so beautiful, without saying anything, it says so much. P.S. I'll always.. and that is my only assurance to him. For this life and for the life after.

Have never really been a romantic before but now I'm amazed at myself, at how romantic I can be.

This is an ode to my love, my love which inspires me, which makes me believe good things happen and how!!

Love is what I shall be indebted to. Love is what I shall credit my life to.
For, its the love of my parents that brought me into this beautiful world to experience love in all its forms, all its varieties from all its sources...

My blue-eyed baby..
I've never felt like this before.
It feels like an awakening, only difference is, its neither for a revolution or for a rebellion.
Its a beautiful path to self-discovery of the hidden me.
The hidden me which is being pampered by you to come out, unleash itself and feel your love.

The journey started 9 yrs ago for us.. without our knowledge.. and when we did realise, we were on different roads. Parallel paths that seem to be together but can never actually meet each other. The journey so far is filled with as many ups and downs as there are elevations and depressions on the surface of our beautiful earth. Note the adjective. It is Becoz of these inconsistent, surprising things does the earth look so beautiful and so does our love.

The realisation happened late when we almost lost each other.
Yes, almost. And I'm glad that 'almost' exists in the earlier line, coz now finally after 9 years, we have found each other and are loving being together.

Looking back, glad the realisation happened and the happy journey has taken off to an exciting roller-coaster ride start. Am waiting to see more of life unfold. I'm ready for anything. I'm gonna welcome any surprises that are waiting at every turn of our journey with unbiased feelings. Coz I know he'll be with me thru thick and thin, sit with me with equal elan, be it comforting cushions or pricking pins.

The more we face things together, the more we keep getting better.


Lovingly yours,
Happy girl! :)