I insisted and I'm glad..

I insisted that we be partners in writing our story here, let it not be just one-sided and how sweetly he obliged.

I'm glad I did that coz this helps. It really helps...

I'm hoping communicating this way will help us bridge those tiny gaps and unforeseen cracks, in times of distress, in times of 'no time', to announce to each other that "I love you hamesha and forever!"

Words spoken, reactions given are different from words written, time taken, to read it, understand it, think over it, respond :)

I dont know but I didnt feel bad even when he said, he hates the feeling of not being himself these days and that everything involves me. Guess I wouldnt have been able to express it better on phone but I share his feelings. I dont want me to rule his life like this.. Unlike other lovers (and thats where we are different I believe :) ) I dont want his life to revolve around me, I want his life to be a life of his own, doing things he wants to, irrespective of their effects on me. We should be bonded in this relationship but not jailed. I would love it if both of us have wings to fly and live our dreams and for them go anywhere and everywhere we want to or have to but at the end of the day, we come back to the same nest and sleep in each other's arms :)

I want us to be:

Independently dependent on each other. 
Individually intertwined.
Bonded but not bounded.
Crazy but not hasty.
Practical yet dreamy.
Maturedly childish.
Wickedly sweet...

I know these combinations sound impossible but hey, when its us, even impossible says "Dude and duddette, I'm POSSIBLE - Please let me also in into your love story :D "
And that is how we are..


He has to go and live life alone but does he forget that when he is going, he is taking me along too..
His heart is where I stay
His words are what I say
His side is by which I lay
Now All I have to pray
is that he doesnt forget to calculate my weight of 50kgs in the allowed weight of his baggage ;)


Dont worry sweetypie,
ye dooriyan aati hai so they can let us experience that virah ki agni
remember we read in 8th class in Radha Krishna ki kahani
and to experience the anguish when we are all out to reduce those dooriyan
kill our tanhaiyan
test our patience
test our emotions
(blah! yeh tests tho school ke baad bhi peecha nahi chodthe yaar!)


Its the vague, undetailed yet ascertained happy future
that motivates us to hang on,
even when we have to go away from each other
but thankfully it keeps reminding us,
"soon we are gonna be back together"
and when we dream of the above statement coming true,
it just fills us with more and more happiness that when it says 'together'
it actually, literally, figuratively, every-ly means together :)

Together...

When he looks into the mirror and speaks to his inner self to be strong, to be HIM,
hope he isnt forgetting that he is in fact speaking to me: to be strong and to be him.
To be strong is not too much of an effort, that I already am.
To be him, I aspire to be.. with a few additions and deletions of course ;)


Yes baby, I'll be with you wherever you go, whatever you do.
Its just gonna be a physical detachment for us and nothing else!


I'm not different from you baby
Do not go by those age-old sayings of 'two bodies, one soul'
Coz We are 'one body, one soul'

(mirrored and cloned and set up in two diff places)

(has to be true right? when you stretching your leg helps relieve the tightness in my leg) :)



All my expressions and emotions are for you
My kisses to touch you
My tears to seep into you
My hugs to feel you
My eyes to sight you
My fears for you to comfort
Without making an effort
Coz it comes natural
and thats the way I like it

"We decided no??"








Ah! How I love writing, specially when its for him, about him and to him :)